I know you. Sooner or later you’re going to wonder how and why. You’re hard on yourself but half the time you think that’s better than harm. Let me jump the gun: you’re full of fears. You hardly swim and then stay afloat for way too long. You’re sure but too comfortable. You can be aggressive and passive at the same time, it’s ironic. You easily get perplexed that you barely move. Nobody wakes you and you refuse to be awakened.
Until one day you thought of finally paddling away from the harbor. You’ve set your sails for a long overdue voyage to the outside world. Not too long after, you’ve made lapses in judgment which in turn capsized the vessel you’ve been protecting for so long. That’s when your fears you don’t even know about drowned you. You screamed and cried while circling down the vortex of your terrors. You fought and failed. You kicked and sunk deep enough for you to notice the anchor weighing you down: YOU.
That’s when you knew. You knew you have to dive deep enough to untangle the chains. You knew you have to be persistent. You knew you have to be someone greater than yourself to achieve something different and more. You’ve paddled your way up slowly but surely. That’s when you’ve finally surfaced.
You’re now determined to brave the depths, the waves, the salt and, the blazing sun with much vigor. You had been so safe in the harbor; you didn’t even know how scary and great the wilderness is. Its greatness lies within the expanse of your mind.
You can do anything, remember that. I’m not saying it’s not going to be rough but you are tough now. You know better. You want better. Dare to live better. I’ll be with you every step of the way because for a reason, I’m always a few steps ahead of you.
This is a long overdue acknowledgement because it’s about time. You’ve been courageous every time you stand up so quickly for every downfall. Time and time again you choose to stay afloat for the person you’re trying to become. You’ve been flexible for all the times the world tried to bend you. Even during the times when challenges seemed impossible to bear, you remain true to yourself.
You recognize reality as it is. You never cease to work your way around stops, detours and bumps along the highway of life. Your pace may be inconsistent, slow or fast or unsteady at times but you keep on moving forward. That’s what it’s all about.
You’re definitely wiser now. You won’t admit it to yourself but you know it. You think and walk in light of the better ways and things you’re now aware of and you’re now equipped of. You do things your way not only because you can but also you believe you’re entitled to. You trust yourself enough.
You’ve been working hard in all aspects of your life. No one can attest to that more than you can. People may or may not notice. People may not say things but most definitely will. No matter what it’s how you see yourself that counts.
It’s time to see that your toughest critic is you. It’s time to hear that the harshest of voices can come from within. It’s time to put the battle at ease for a little while to appreciate the progress. You’ve been good. You’re stronger now. You live it. You feel it.
It’s about time for you to say it. It’s about time to stare back at yourself in the mirror and say: “I’m proud of you.” How long can you go on and on in describing goodness and love before you mention yourself?
I know it’s been hard.
You will never stop growing.
You’re getting there slowly but surely.